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ajeno deseo

30 Thursday Aug 2012

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ajeno deseo, alien, lindo insecto, Spanish, translation

Ahora solas, sentí tus labios

mientras tú me besó.

Me comí mi propio miedo.

Llamaron a usted un monstruo,

sino eras tan hermosa que yo

no tenía palabras. Usted

pone tus garras en mi boca,

en busca de el éxtasis

de una orgasmo; en un siseo

que podría haber sido la muerte

de un animal pequeño o un sueño

cumplido. Yo vivía con tu el olor

de la muerte y sexo.

Yo vivía con mi sangre

y con tu ajeno deseo.

Todos los amantes

famosos eran monstruo.

 

trippy little bug

(Now alone, I felt your lips while you kissed me. I ate my own fear. They called you a monster, but you were so beautiful that I had no words. You put your claws in my mouth, looking for the ecstasy of orgasm in a hiss that could have been the death of a small animal or a dream fulfilled. I lived with a smell of death and sex. I lived with my blood and your alien desire. All famous lovers were monsters.)

hermana de cain, sin nombre

29 Wednesday Aug 2012

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biblical erotica, Cain, forbidden, incest, sister, Spanish, translation

Hermana de Cain, sin nombre.

Un deseo prohibida.

Una secreta pasión.

Una delicia terrenal.

Diario vivir, respirar segundo

a segundo. Ella aún recordó cuando

las dedos de ella hermano, jugaban

con los tetinas de ella senos.

Érase una vez había un jardín

del deseo. Caín tuvo relaciones

sexuales con su hermana,

provocando un estallido

de humedad en ese lugar calido

y ardiente de ella intimidad.

Ella quedó embarazada y dio

a luz a Enoc. ¿sino prohibida?

Era la Amanecer de la Humanidad.

Todo estaba delicioso.

(Cain’s sister, unnamed. A desire forbidden. A secret passion. An earthly delight. Daily living, breathing second to second. She still remembered when her brother’s fingers played with the nipples of her breasts. Once upon a time there was a garden of desire. Cain had sex with his sister, causing a burst of moisture in that warm and fiery place of her privacy. She became pregnant and gave birth to Enoch. But forbidden? It was the dawn of mankind. Everything was delicious)

rojo bambu (soneto)

29 Wednesday Aug 2012

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art, rojo bambu, sonnet, Spanish, translation

August 29, 2012 [2]

Primero compré un lanzamiento del bambú rojo, menos

que un pie, y tomó abajo anguila-como la lámina

con la manija de la quijada del boquete. Debo confesar

tomó un día para tallarlos. Estoy asustado

tres eran todos lo que podría dominar. Entonces encontré

el viejo pote de arcilla formado fuera de nightshade

y sangre. La llené y después encendí un redondo

encienda abajo de punto bajo. Tallé una pregunta y puse

en un desecho de madera, lo fijó para arder: ¿quién

hay fuera de? Los fuegos crackled hasta que

A.M.E.X.Q. fue deletreado. ¿Qué blithesome

el alcohol es usted, amor? Después: Le espero.

Mi corte de bambú pasado era rezo: ¿cuándo

usted vendrá? ¿Alcohol de la prisa – cuándo usted vendrá?

][][

(First I bought a shoot of red bamboo, less than a foot, and took down the eel-like blade with the gap jaw handle. I must confess it took a day to carve them. I’m afraid three was all I could master. Then I found the old clay pot fashioned out of nightshade and blood. I filled it and then lit a round fire down low. I carved a question and laid it on a wood scrap, set it to blaze: who is out there? The fires crackled until A.M.E.X.Q. was spelled. What blithesome spirit are you, love? Next: I wait for you. My last bamboo cutting was prayer: when will you come? Hurry spirit — when will you come?)

debajo de ti

29 Wednesday Aug 2012

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art, cunnilingus, ghost, Janis Joplin, Spanish, translation

August 29, 2012 [3]

“Y parece que todo el mundo en toda

la ronda mundo está abajo en mí,”

— Janis Joplin

Esta noche soñé contigo, Janis.

Tu lengua jugaba con la mía, mezclándose

tu dicha con la mía. Estabas sudada,

excitada, mojada y furiosa.

Tenias tus manos en mi cabeza,

con mi lengua dentro tus vientre,

y tu espalda contra la pared.

Esta noche, hermanita, estoy “debajo

de ti.” No sé si los muertos

pueden tener orgasmos.

Pero, Janis, esta noche mi boca

está llena de tu dicha.

][][

(This night I dreamed about you, Janis. Your tongue played with mine, mixing your bliss with mine. Were sweaty, excited, wet and angry. You had your hands on my head, with my tongue in your belly, and your back against the wall. Tonight, sister, I am “down on you.” I do not know if the dead can have orgasms. But Janis, tonight my mouth is filled with your bliss.)

voy a bajar, Janis/ I’m going down, Janis

23 Thursday Aug 2012

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art, gif, girl on fire, Poetry

“Y parece que todo
el mundo en toda
la ronda mundo
está abajo en mí,”

– Janis Joplin?

Voy a bajar, Janis.
Tu vello púbico
enredados
en las cortas caricias de mi
respiración. Mi lengua lame
tus polvo de tumba olores.
Esta noche, parece que todo
el mundo en
toda la ronda
mundo está abajo en usted.
Un millón de las lenguas
que lamen. O tal vez sólo
la mía. Me encanta cuando
los muertos
tienen orgasmos.
Janis, mi boca está
llena de tu leche.

(I’m going down, Janis. Your pubic hair entangled in the short strokes of my breath. My tongue licking your grave dust odors. Tonight, it seems that everyone in the whole round world is down on you. A million tongues licking. Or maybe just mine. I love it when the dead have orgasms. Janis, my mouth is full of your cum)

abajo en mí (rewrite)

23 Thursday Aug 2012

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corpses, Janis Joplin, Nina Simone, translation

I’ve been working trying to write in Spanish lately. It’s not going well, but I love the challenge, and who knows? One day I might even get it right. I got into a conversation with a friend about whether or not the dead can cum, if they could have orgasms and she said no and I said it probably depended who it was. Of all the dead rock stars, I bet Janis Joplin could do it. She could sing the blues like nobody’s business. At the 1976 Montreux Jazz Festival, Nina Simone said:

“… yesterday I went to see Janis Joplin’s film here. And what distressed me the most was to see how hard she worked. Because she got hooked into a feeling and she played to corpses.”

“Playing to corpses.” I hope they put that on my gravestone.

* * *

“Y parece que todo el mundo en toda la ronda mundo está abajo en mí,” Janis Joplin

Esta noche soñé contigo, Janis. Tu lengua jugaba con la mía, mezclándose tu dicha con la mía. Eras sudada, excitada, mojada y furioso.

Tu tenía tus manos en mi cabeza, con mi lengua dentro tus vientre, y tu espalda contra la pared. Esta noche, hermanita, estoy abajo en usted.

No sé si los muertos pueden tener orgasmos. Pero, Janis, esta noche mi boca está llena de tu beatitud.

* * *

para janis joplin

swamp-honey/ pantanosa-miel

20 Monday Aug 2012

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Arcadia, pantanosa-miel, rainy afternoon, Spanish, swamp-honey, translation, wall of flesh

I.
Si sigue lloviendo,
descendían al pantano del deseo.
Ir a jugar en los charcos y caricias
lleno de totoral y carrizal.

Arcadia podría ahogarse
en un estallido de humedad.
Lluvias de placer.
Gemidos de pasión.

If it keeps on raining,
go down to the swamp called desire.
Go play in the puddles and caresses
full of cattails and reeds.

Arcadia could drown
in a burst of moisture.
Showers of pleasure.
Moans of passion.

II.
Si sigue lloviendo
contra la pared de carne;
contra el dique; contra
la sangre para siempre
deja que tu boca beber
la pantanosa-miel,
de ese pequeño marisma
donde se tus labios
y tu lengua se cantar.

If it keeps on raining
against this wall of flesh,
against this dam, against
this blood forever
let your mouth drink
the swamp-honey,
that little marsh
where your lips
and your tongue sings.

mi hija, el pornographer (soneto)

19 Sunday Aug 2012

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my daughter, pornographer, sonnet, Spanish, translation

Fue cuando ella comenzó a traer su trabajo

al hogar que comencé a preocuparme. Caminando

por la cocina para encontrar a alguna muchacha

masturbando a un tipo, era mi hija, capturando

toda en la película, grita las instrucciones. Encontrar

el fregadero lleno juguetes sexuales apenas lavados. Un nuevo

tubo de lubricante anal en su monedero. “mirando a

otros coger,” ella me dijo, “es lo que mejor se hacer.”

No puedo avitar pensar que hay voyeurs

en todos nosotros. Incluso la palabra impresa

era una vez de otros. “Estarias sorprendido

qué todos lo que podemos hacer delante de otros,

dado la ocasión,” dijo ella. “es absurdo

decir que no amamos lo que desdeñan otros.”

mi-hija-el-pornographer-2

(It was when she started bringing her work home that I began worrying. Walking into the kitchen to find some girl jerk a boy off as my daughter, capturing it all on film, shouts instructions. Finding the sink full of sex toys just washed. A new tube of anal lube in her purse. “Watching others fuck,” she told me, “is what I do best.” I can’t help but think there are voyeurs in all of us. Even the printed word was once another’s. “You would be surprised what we all will do in front of others, given the chance,” she said. “It is absurd to say we don’t love what others despise.”)

funcionamiento violento en mí (soneto)

18 Saturday Aug 2012

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funcionamiento violento en mí, sonnet, sorrow, Spanish, translation

¡Usted canta hoy, “te quiero! Te quiero!

Te quiero!” ¿Y qué de él? ¿Guardó

ame en su lado? ¿fantasma gordo que

vaga su paisaje susurrado pararon para llorar

o reírle o hablar? Todos poseemos

secretos. Todos poseemos las pasiones que duermen.

¿Quién no tiene el impulso salvaje de acariciar

o de ser acariciado? Cuando usted piensa en el profundo

las raíces verdes que usted ha empujado en mí, suciedad húmeda

de mi corazón, la dulzura, la señal de socorro,

todas las sensaciones sutiles del desierto

ese funcionamiento violento en mí, le hizo una vez la conjetura

que le desplumaría de este suelo húmedo y porqué?

¿Quién le miraría marchitar y se descolora y muere?

 

sorrow

 

(Today you sing, “I love you! I love you! I love you!” And what of it? Did it keep love at your side? Did any fat ghost who wanders your whispered landscape stop to weep or laugh or speak to you? We all possess secrets. We all possess passions that sleep. Who does not have the wild urge to caress or be caressed? When you think of the deep green roots you have thrust into me, moist dirt of my heart, the tenderness, the distress, all the subtle feelings of the desert that run violent in me, did you once guess who would pluck you from this moist soil and why? Who would watch you wither and fade and die?)

the statue of a crimsoned succubus

08 Wednesday Aug 2012

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Buddha, crimson, ghost, historic, Japan, Lady Leiko, masturbation, Mistress Fuyu, Nagasaki, Onna bugeisha, sculptress, story, succubus

the statue of a crimsoned succubus

In a large room of an artist’s studio, somewhere lost within one of the many suburbs of Kyoto, a boy watched an older woman, red paint up to her elbows, in the act of crimsoning a succubus.

The studio looked out on the courtyard which the building itself was built around. The sun, at that moment overhead, blazed down upon the mossy wet vines that clung to the brick work, sending their red reflections glowing into all the sombre nooks of the work room.

The succubus, rudely cut from lecher’s wood, rested at ease upon her tail, her curled-ram horns pressed against the wall, her legs obscenely sprawled open. The sculptress sat before her creation on a low stool, hard at work. The silent boy sat nearby, gazing fondly at both.

On the table in front of the open window stood a row of Oni, rough mountain demons, modeled from river-bed clay. Beside that project were piles of washi parchment covered with drawings in the woman’s own hand, done in blues and reds. By the door a figure of Inari, the trickster fox god of rice, sake and prosperity, sat upon its haunches, a sacred minashigo key hanging from its mouth.

The woman was dressed in simple browns, she had a round, dark face and straight black hair. From the globs of scarlet-red paint spread out at her feet she carefully, with only her fingertips as tools, crimsoned the succubus into life. The effect was less of a statue being given a second skin with an ox-tail brush; rather, it was as if life was slowly seeping through the cold dark hues of the wood through the miraculous use of the succubus’ own menstrual blood. From her thighs on down she appeared to have spurted and spouted sticky rivulets that coated her goat-legs; while, from her navel upwards, the artist’s red-soaked fingerprints could be seen upon the naked wood, fondling each intrinsically carved breast, the thick neck, the bulbous lips.

Once in a while the woman would say the boy’s name, “Shijo;” but it had less to do with starting a conversation and more in a childish, sing-song voice, as if his name were precious to her and she simply enjoyed saying it for the sake of hearing the syllables roll off her tongue. Whenever she did say it, though, the boy would look up from whatever he was doing and smile to himself. He was use to her moods, had seen all of them in the last two years. She was having a mood right at that moment. He could tell. The studio was utterly silent, a perfect hush enhanced by the heat of a noonday sun beating down. Presently the woman rose, crossed to the window, her arms sticky with paint and looked out into the heat.

From where she stood she could see the sparse flowers edging the neglected pathway, the building opposite her with its broken windows, the scandalmongering vines climbing up the tiled roof that cut the violet-blue of a July sky into fragments.

In the center of the courtyard was an ancient, dry fountain; some tall red sayuri lilies grew there, the pure cherry of their hearts bright as the paint the woman had been applying to the succubus reclining wantonly behind her.

The boy stood and walked to stand behind the woman, to see what had caught her attention. The sculptress rested her elbows on the sill, it was so hot that she felt it burning through the paint that was quickly drying on her hands. She had the air of one routinely use to being by herself, the unquestioned calm that arose from a life of long silences. Her face was reserved, even sombre; her lips, well shaped but pale, were resolutely set; there was a fine curve of strength to her chin. She had wide, black brows, smooth dark skin, nebulous mahogany eyes. Her throat was full, she had the sort of muscles sculptors called beautiful.

After a time of gazing at the sun-burned garden she turned back into the room. Standing in the center of the studio, with her teeth worrying her red middle finger, she looked questioningly at the half-crimson succubus. The boy smiled, waiting patiently to see what she finally would say. Some times it would take her hours to form a single comment, but they were observations he always found endlessly interesting. Instead, with a sigh, she took a curiously wrought key from her belt, swung it about in her fingers and left the room.

The building was built without connecting corridors or passages. Each room opened onto another, the upper ones were reached by short wooden staircase built against one of the outer walls. There were many apartments on the second floor, each one boasting imperial designs from at least fifty to sixty years ago. As with all the windows on the first floor, the ones on the second were set facing the old courtyard.

Many queer and exquisite objects could be seen in those long deserted rooms; carved chests full of Korean silver; paintings from China full of erotic terror; furniture made by long-forgotten hands. In one chamber hung several gold-silk tapestries depicting the Eight Devils of Kimon, all done in shades of ruddy brown. As she walked lightly from one room to the next her footsteps caused little clouds of dust to billow up, marking her slow passage.

Passing these things without a glance the woman unlocked a door on whose rusty hinges it took all her strength simply to turn. It was a store-room, one lit only by one low window looking down upon the street. Like everything else in the building, it too was full of dust as well as a sallow, moldy odor. About the floor lay many bound-chests, untouched and before one of these the woman knelt, fiddling with the lock.

The smell of rust filled her nose as the lid swung open. The chest contained a number of cut gemstones. She selected two of more or less equal size, each a crystal pink in hue. Then, after locking the old door behind her, she silently made her way back from where she had come, returning to her studio. When she saw the hollow eye-sockets of the succubus, she placed what looked like living liquid fire into the wooden skull. Watching her statue’s eyes sparkle she finally relaxed, standing for a long while contemplating her handiwork. Finally she washed her hands and arms, putting away her orphic paints.

By then the sun had changed position as it crept across the room, casting hot brindled shadows, cast from the dappled vines hanging from the window eaves over the river-clay Oni, dazzling the colors in Inari’s psychedelic robe.

For the second time that day the woman left the room, venturing into the hall, opening the door that exited upon the street. She shaded her eyes, gazed across the July dazzle, the shadow of her slack, slim figure was cast into the square of hot sunlight issuing from across the hallway and through the open door.

It had been almost two years since the Siege of Kyoto. The section where her studio stood had been devastated. Now, newer suburbs were being built, but that left her neighborhood’s ruins neglected. It was hard for her to imagine a city as vast as Kyoto containing ghost towns, but wasn’t that what this was? She looked at the barren market-place, surrounded by abandoned buildings. Everything was falling into decay. Beyond those shells she could spy the squat roof of the local Shinto shrine jutting upwards across the scarlet sky. Brown grass grew between broken cobbles. There was not a soul in sight.

Under the rusted iron bell that hung against the door beam to her building hung a basket. Her mysterious patron had been by it seemed. She fished out of it bread, a flask of plum sake, some old vegetables wrapped in a linen cloth. The sculptress took these with her and closed the door upon the outer world.

Carrying her loot back in her arms, she crossed the hallway and came out into the opposite end of the courtyard. The tall red sayuri lilies seemed to be nodding their heads to her, as if the two of them were in on a secret no one else knew. Entering by a door next to the fountain the woman found herself in her workshop once more.

Setting her load down on a corner of her work table, the woman proceeded to prepare her meal. Above the wide tiled hearth hung a metal chain and attached to that was an iron pot. She lit a fire under the pot, filled it with water, then put the vegetables in. Then she took down a heavily bound book from off a shelf. Bending over it, huddled on a stool, she began to read.

It was a book filled with drawings — strange, horrible, erotic artwork — as well as curious stories that had been written in a black-blue scrawl. As the woman read she uncrossed her legs and her face grew hot. She flushed while resting her cheek on one hand, turning pages with the other. The heavy volume felt cumbrous on her knees. Not once did she look up but with parted lips pored over the midnight-blue drawings.

Outside the vines curled against the sun-kissed brick, the empty sky looked down upon the dry fountain, it burned the dead grass, the tall red sayuri lilies. The sun sank on the other side of the building, still the woman read on. The flames leaped on the hearth, the vegetables seethed in the pot unheeded.

All alone the woman leaned back on one elbow looking at the drawings. She reached down with her free hand and raised the hem of her kimono, revealing the cotton thong of a man’s fundoshi that she was in the habit of wearing. She ran one long fingertip along the front of her cunt and moaned. She looked up at the window and then back at the book, an anthology called “Kinoe no Komatsu / Languishing for Love”. She let her knees fall open wider and pulled the crotch of her fundoshi to one side as she turned the page. The glorious mound of her pubic hair was already wet and sticky. She plunged two-fingers inside her girl-lips and began to grind, leaving a wet cum-smear on the stool’s seat.

The woman groaned. There it was, the famous print known as “Dream of the Fisherman’s Wife” a prime example of the “aesthetic of the grotesque” in the erotic age of Hokusai. The body of a woman, head thrown back in either carnal abandonment, or drowned and swaying this way and that in the inky green water, allowing Tako no Kami, the octopus god, access to her cunt. It was a curious new form of 8-tentacle “kun’niringusu,” as the Kyoto poets once called the ancient art of clit licking. Her fingers plunged in-and-out of her soaked pussy.

“I’m going to cum–”

The woman’s eyes were screwed tight, her mind lost in the approaching orgasm. She was finger fucking herself so red-hot and hard that her tiny breasts under her kimono were shaking. She knew exactly how that fisherman’s wife felt; she’d fuck a devil-god if the opportunity presented itself. That need to be filled up with something otherworldly, that need to cum all over something impossibly hard.

“O! O! O!”

She was making soundless noises now, feeling the wave over take her. She slipped a third finger into her cunt as she brought herself to the brink. Closer — harder — closer — faster — clo–

With that, without warning, a heavy clang from her old rusted doorbell broke the spell. The woman dropped the book, sprang to her feet, gazing in horror and bewilderment, one hand still buried between her legs as the long awaited orgasm … faded away.

Again the bell sounded.

She picked up the book, put it back on the shelf, licked her fingers, feeling ambivalent.

For a third time the iron clang, insistent, impatient, breaking her quiet once and for all.

The woman frowned while readjusting her clothes, pushing back her hair from her sweaty forehead, fingered her clit through the fabric of her fundoshi, then went, with cautious steps, across the courtyard once more, back through the dark hall and up to the door. For a second she hesitated — was it really worth it? — then drew back the bolt and threw open the door to world outside.

A woman stood waiting for her.

She was younger than the sculptress, but not greatly, gorgeously attired, a lady no doubt from the emperor’s inner court. A concubine? No, a warrior, even though her carefully pleated and folded dress was stunning. Her coiffure was just as stylized, with not a hair out of place.

“You cannot want me,” the sculptress finally said, surveying the stranger for a couple of moments. “And there is no one else here. Sayonara.”

“If you are Mistress Fuyu Tsukiko,” the splendidly-dressed stranger answered, “then I certainly do want you.”

“Want me?” The sculptress opened the door a little wider. “I am Fuyu Tsukiko, but I do not know you.”

“Perhaps,” the other answered. “But I have questions that only you can answer. I am Lady Leiko of Nagasaki.”

“Leiko of Nagasaki!” repeated Fuyu softly. Then, as if she had come to a conclusion, she stood aside, motioning for the lady to enter. When she had passed into the hallway she carefully bolted the door, then turned to her with a grave expression.

“Will you follow me, my lady?” she said, walking before Leiko to her studio.

The sun had left the room by that time, but the air was still bathed in a reddish warmth. There was a sense of great heat that lay trapped in the ancient bricks and grass.

Fuyu Tsukiko offered a seat to her guest, who accepted in silence.

“You must wait until the supper is prepared,” she said. With that she placed herself on the stool by the pot, stirring its contents with an iron spoon, openly studying the woman.

The material of Leiko’s semitransparent kimono did nothing much to hide her curves, although most were hidden by layers of silk. Her beauty mesmerized Fuyu until she forgot for a moment what she was suppose to do.

Leiko, for her part, returned Mistress Fuyu Tsukiko’s steady gaze.

“You have heard of me?” she said suddenly.

“Yes,” was the instant answer.

“Then you know what I am here for?”

“Perhaps,” said Mistress Fuyu, frowning.

Leiko turned and stared at the half-crimson succubus with great interest, even, Fuyu mused, a little fear.

“My mother is the Lady Miyuki of Nagasaki,” Leiko finally answered in a manner one might have called arrogant. “The Emperor made me a warrior, an Onna bugeisha, when I was fifteen. Now I am tired of Nagasaki life, of castle life, of my mother. So I have taken to the road.”

Mistress Fuyu lifted the iron pot from the fire to the hearth.

“The road to where?” the sculptress asked.

Leiko made a large gesture with her hands.

“To wherever the road leads.”

“As an Onna bugeisha?” asked Mistress Fuyu.

Leiko tossed her fine head.

“As a former Onna bugeisha. Now I have other ambitions.”

Mistress Fuyu smiled, moving about, setting the food ready. She placed the little clay Oni on the window-sill; flung, without any ado, her drawings, paints and brushes onto the floor.

A queer silence fell on the room. The host did not seem to encourage comment. The atmosphere was not conducive to talk. Fuyu opened a cabinet in the wall, took out an elegant cloth that she laid smoothly on the rough table. Then she set on it earthenware dishes, honey in a clay jar, flushed pears cut thin, rice cakes in a plaited basket, steamed cabbage, radishes fragrantly pickled, the bottle of plum sake.

“Does anyone else live here with you?” Leiko asked at one point.

“I live by myself. I have no desire for company. I take pleasure in my work alone. Sometimes people come to buy my art, usually one of my sculptures for their shrines, but of late very few.”

“You are a good artisan, then?” asked Miyuki. “Who taught you?”

“Old Mistress Yoi, born in Higashimurayama village, taught in Edo. When she died she left me this building.”

Again the room sank into silence. Shadows crept about.

Leiko ate everything put in front of her. Fuyu, on the other hand, seated next to the window, rested her chin on her palm, stared out at the bright and fading orange sky, then at the broken windows, then at the sayuri lilies waving about the dry fountain. She ate very little. After a while the lady asked, almost shamelessly, for some of the sake. The sculptress rose and brought a sake cup to her.

“Why have you come here?” Fuyu inquired, placing the bottle before Leiko.

Leiko laughed easily.

“I am married,” she said, as an explanation, lifting her cup to her lips. At that Mistress Fuyu frowned.

“There are a lot of married people in this world.”

Leiko surveyed the mysterious swirling liqueur through half-closed eyes.

“It is about my husband, O my host; that is why I am here.”

Fuyu Tsukiko leaned back in her chair.

“Yes, I have known your husband.”

“Really? Please, tell me about him,” Leiko of Nagasaki requested. “I have come here for that story.”

Fuyu smiled slightly.

“But why would I know anything more about him than his own wife?”

Leiko flushed.

“Perhaps. Perhaps. But never mind, go on, what do you know? Tell me.”

Fuyu’s smile deepened.

“He was the only son of the Lady of Kobayashi, he hid himself at the cloister of the Red Brotherhood in Kyoto to avoid having to marry you.”

“I see you know that,” said Leiko. “What else?”

“Since you wish for me to tell you about your own life, listen to what I have to say, my lady.”

Fuyu spoke with an uninterested tone, staring the entire time out of the window.

“He desired, I think, to become one of the Order of the Red Brotherhood. But when he was fifteen his elder brother died, thus he became your mother-in-law’s only heir. Many families wished to align themselves with her, but in the end they agreed for him to marry you.”

“Without my wish or consent,” Leiko added, refilling her sake cup.

Fuyu simply shrugged.

“The feelings seem to be mutual. Your husband, who wished most passionately, I am told, to become a priest, fell ill with grief. In his despair he confided his misery to a local miko, a temple maiden, who lived in his neighborhood.”

Leiko’s eyes flickered, hardened behind their long lashes.

“Your husband was to be heir to a great fortune,” said Fuyu, “but it was through this miko that he became introduced to the Brothers. In his fear of marriage he promised them all his inheritance if they would save him from his mother’s iron will. So the priests, tempted by greed, spread the rumor that he had died. There was even a fake funeral and he was kept secret in the city’s cloister, dressed as an initiate. All this was put into writing, documented by the priests, so that there would be no doubt when the boy returned from the dead, as it were, looking for his inheritance once his mother had died.”

“Yes. I was glad to hear that he had died, at least at the time,” said Leiko. “For by that time I loved another and there is no honor in behavior like that, husband or no.”

“He lived for a year among the priests,” Fuyu Tsukiko went on. “But his life became bitter. He wanted to escape, I believe, yet he could not make himself known to his mother for then it would become known that not only had he lied about this death but that he had promised the priests everything.”

“Go on.”

“Is there more?”

“You know there is.”

“So, as life became more and more horrible for your husband he found a way to send a letter to his widow.”

“Yes. I have it here.” Leiko touched her breast. “He told me all about his dishonesty, begged forgiveness,” she laughed. “He asked me to come rescue him.”

Fuyu crossed her long hands upon the table. There was still red paint under her nails.

“But you … but you did not rescue him, though. You did not even answer his letter.”

“No, I did not rescue him. His mother had taken another husband, she now had a new son to inherit everything.” Leiko lowered her eyes moodily, “I was occupied, in love with a … dairy fairy. Plus, he had lied, my little foolish husband: to Buddha, to me, to the world. ‘It will be poetic justice,’ I thought. ‘For him to suffer as I once suffered’.”

“He waited for months for your answer,” stated Mistress Fuyu flatly. “Finally he fled from the cloister to here, to this very building. Again he wrote to his wife and again she did not answer. That was two years ago.”

“Did the priests make no attempts to search for him?” asked Leiko.

“By that time they knew that the boy was heir to nothing. They were afraid that the tale might reach the ears of the shogun and there might be … repercussions. But did it matter? Around that time the usurper, Tokugawa, lay Kyoto under siege and everyone suddenly had other things to worry about.”

“Indeed. Had it not been that I was required to help mount a defense of the city I might gotten here sooner,” explained Leiko. “But I was occupied with fighting.”

“The cloister was destroyed, the brothers murdered or fled into exile,” continued Fuyu. “The boy lived here, learning many crafts from Old Mistress Yoi. She had no apprentices but the two of us.”

Leiko leaned back in her chair.

“That much I have learned. That the old woman, dying, left her place to you. What did she leave to my husband?”

Fuyu gave her a long, unblinking stare and then turned back to the window.

“It is not strange that you are here, now? You, Leiko of Nagasaki, after all this time, inquiring about your husband.”

“A woman must know how she is loaded down with other people’s responsibilities. As it turns out only you and I know that he had an existence of any sort after he faked his death. He might be a fool but he is still my husband.”

Dusk — hot, blood-red — had fallen on the chamber. The half-crimsoned succubus gleamed dully, the wet lips of her cunt spread vulgarly before the two women. Lady Leiko of Nagasaki felt a little chill pass through her, despite the heat, a little sullen chill, but she waited to see what the older woman had to say.

The sculptress rested her smooth pale face on her palm, her mahogany eyes were hardly discernible in the twilight, but the shadow of her lips moved when she spoke.

“Shijo died two years ago,” she said. “His grave is in the garden, next to the fountain, where those red sayuri lilies grow.”

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