all day I hear
my heart
in my ear
02 Friday Oct 2015
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04 Friday Sep 2015
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crone, don't get cocky, maiden, mother, poem, Poetry, slashed bole, sonnet, wet charcoal
Don’t get cocky — Everything can get blown
apart. There’s no help the way I’m wired.
Vast sky: I am small. Mother, Maiden, Crone:
be with me as I drift — I’m still tired.
My name sounds rough in your tongue. This slashed bole
of a stump means that there’s no way I can
cling tight, I’ll just leave smears like wet charcoal.
I’ve read the Bible, Torah and Koran:
all man-made laws that restrict my sisters
restrict me — When they came for the sissies
and the butches I was high strung enough
to stand my ground, though there are some horrors
you can’t beat — how do I love these slashes
or find a name that doesn’t sound rough —
29 Wednesday Jul 2015
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Acid Girl, deathblowjob, L.S.Diva, monster squirrel fetish, mutant cells, obedient bodies, Poetry, sonnet
I tell you, sex with a nightmare is odd
but fun. No, it wasn’t a monster squirrel
fetish; she was, in fact, a disease god.
— L.S.Diva aka Acid Girl
aka Small Disease God — I don’t know
exactly the disease she embodied,
a small one, I suppose. The term, “deathblow
job” was hers. Obedient bodies’ need
to feed did not excite her. “You’re immune
system’s failure is what I want,” she’d grunt,
her long forked tongue crazily twined with mine,
fingers touching the lump in my breast. “Soon,
soon.” I don’t mind being loved for my mutant
cells, who can say of cancer, “fuck benign.”
16 Saturday May 2015
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booze blood words, full of doubt, hospice nurse, poem, Poetry, sonnet, wearing other people's underwear
Liquid devils; it’s not other people
that I’m morbidly sick over, it’s what
they do. No. I mean, when I say, “devil,”
I mean, “words in a text;” and “liquid”? Blood.
Booze. All that I put in me. This is me:
after the shift I’m left with ugly shoes,
aching lack and words. Without dowry,
all my touchables go untouched. This booze.
This blood. These words. I bite my lip. I think
I’m a bitter deity, since I don’t
even get the chance to tell you about
who died at work, that I’m wearing your pink
boy-briefs, or that nothing (booze, blood, words) won’t
let me unread what fills me now: pure doubt.
14 Thursday May 2015
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envoi, our lady of ruins, poem, Poetry, reblog, Traci Brimhall
You said abundance would not harm me,
but none of your songs could stopthe god-awful fullness of the moon.
Even the plague ended in feast,birds chirping fat and happy
in their nests. I tried other oceans,climbed a volcano to look inside
the earth, walked to the edgeof the sinkhole that swallowed a city.
My freedom only made me more afraid.I’m not sure there is any world
but this one, and the mango’s sweetnessis terrible to me. Some days the fire is a mirror.
Some days I can bear the stillness of elkwhen I surprise them in the alder.
Yesterday I cleaned bones out of the boatand met a child on the shore. He made a gun
out of his hand. No one taught him this.He raised his arm, fingers leveled
at my heart. You said I could contain it,this gift. The boy told me I could keep
the boat. The bones were his.
13 Wednesday May 2015
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Now I am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again, and interesting, and modern.
13 Wednesday May 2015
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In the photograph, I stand
naked, my back to the camera,
peering in through the window
of the bar at the the older
women, their gaze direct and
unafraid, the ones who’ve been
to the gym, their breasts more
muscle than fat, thick, butch
waists, their arms massive, thighs
with sinews bigger than my
head; but no, there is no bar,
no window, just a blank wall
and me, standing naked.
13 Wednesday May 2015
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Lana Turner has collapsed!
I was trotting along and suddenly
it started raining and snowing
and you said it was hailing
but hailing hits you on the head
hard so it was really snowing and
raining and I was in such a hurry
to meet you but the traffic
was acting exactly like the sky
and suddenly I see a headline
LANA TURNER HAS COLLAPSED!
there is no snow in Hollywood
there is no rain in California
I have been to lots of parties
and acted perfectly disgraceful
but I never actually collapsed
oh Lana Turner we love you get up
05 Tuesday May 2015
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May I, composed like them
Of Eros and of dust,
Beleaguered by the same
Negation and despair,
Show an affirming flame.
19 Sunday Apr 2015
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another lonely night, little blue flower I call mother, me and Sappho keep our secrets, poem, Poetry
Little blue flower, Sappho,
I’ve been waiting for a
friend to speak this
language with but I am
alone so I speak to myself.