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fester

27 Sunday Jan 2019

Posted by babylon crashing in Disaster –- Pain –- Sorrow, irony, Poetry, self-portrait, sonnet

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alcoholic, fester, holes in my brain, poem, Poetry, shaman, sonnet, the gods breathe, worlds in my skull

All these displays of drunkenness come on
me at odd moments. At twelve they were droll,

even charming. Now? I know that neurons
misfire in my head, though huffing xylol

didn’t help, up along neural pathways
in my brain so that I seem a sucker,

easy mark, artless fuck. All these displays,
from dazed to frenzy, with fears that fester

here, of damage that won’t heal. They all seethe
here. I rave and reel just like cast-off junk.

Manic. A shaman without her people
is just one more loon who hears the gods breathe.

I’ve no people. I don’t drink but I’m drunk
roaming holes in my brain, worlds in my skull.

mercy

27 Thursday Dec 2018

Posted by babylon crashing in Armenia, Disaster –- Pain –- Sorrow, Poetry, self-portrait, sonnet

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alcoholic, Armenia, Gyumri, lilith now and forever, Nagorno-Karabakh, poem, Poetry, ptsd, recovery, sonnet

Christmas Eve’s “No First Drink” Recovery
Meeting. The reek of Pall Mall in the air.

Don’t talk now. Don’t stand out. Not of Gyumri.
Not of dead orphans. Not of the nightmare

that haunts you from Nagorno-Karabakh.
Everyone here carries their own horrors.

Right now just listen, just be present. Black
humor, Lilith’s mercy, depraved lovers

kept you, if not lucid, at least sober …
but not tonight. You woke. You sit and grieve,

nod and listen. You love these survivors.
You love everyone but yourself. No prayer

will heal what you conceal under your sleeve,
under your burn scar, your broken knuckle.

peaches and herb

23 Monday Sep 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Illustration and art

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alcoholic, cult of personality, diabetic, ego dicating libido, peaches and herb, poem, Poetry, poets make lousy lays, reunited, sonnet, why I hate the cult of Heinrich Karl Bukowski

Chocolate and booze, sighs the diabetic
alcoholic, while Reunited plays
in the background. There’s nothing poetic
about this shit. Poets make lousy lays.
Despise their words they don’t last long in bed.
Promise me you’re not like that, letting your
ego dictate your libido. The dead
give much better head than any cocksure
pre-teen. Tween. Teasing. Of course, cock sucking
is your forte. It’s why you write about skanks
instead of being one. Just look at me,
diabetic, alcoholic, bragging
like I bought my own lie. The booze I drank.
The fucks I gave. All the shit I sell you.

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