after a loss, JR, losing my old boy, my altar, poem, Poetry, sonnet, sorrow and grief, wait for me
— after a loss.
If love is what we make of it, then what
counts is not who we’ve lost but everyone
waiting for us at the end. “Love, spirit,
baby cat, I’m so proud of you. It’s done.
You’re safe. Sleep. Wait for me. I will follow.”
“His heart has stopped,” the vet said. I woke to
a strange empty bed. No nuzzling. No
medicine to prep. No deep sing-song mew
for food. Maybe my faith (“Love, wait for me.”)
is wrong? Maybe there’ll be no one waiting?
It’s hard when all you have is a red thread
joining you two. My altar looks lonely
without him sprawled in a sunbeam, grooming
his dark coat, burning with flecked shades of red.