Last night, two a.m. at the hospital,
with your loved one’s blood on your jeans. Ruin
and his screaming are still stuck in your skull
the next morning, all that noise while someone
tried to save his life. I brought him home. He
slept pressed close to my side. Can a tumor
grow and bloom so fast in days? They showed me
some X-rays. What difference does it matter
if it wasn’t there on Tuesday? It’s there
now. Death takes in threes: I lost Kriszti last
week and maybe J.R. today. Then who?
One more shock. Two weeks ago I would swear
life was good but pain is subtle and vast
and I can only plead: “not yet, not through.”