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queen brute

08 Sunday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Illustration and art, Poetry, sonnet

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art, eclipse, hallelujah, no one is saved, poem, Poetry, queen brute, sonnet, The Ancient One

Dec 08, 2013 (1)

That is not me talking. Those aren’t my lips,
fingers, tongue. I stepped aside. I let in

and then exhaled out. Possess you. Eclipse
you. This Ancient will prevail. Ancient skin.

Ancient name. Ancient dreams. Balsam, wet root,
limestone. Those weren’t my scents. That wasn’t my boast.

They all came when I stood down. This queen-brute
dressed up in a kimono. This girl ghost

who came back from the other side. Karma
means not a thing. No one is saved. Ancient

soul from before time who will make your death
rattle sound like a low hallelujah,

the gasp of surprise and awe a moment
before orgasm, faith’s very last breath.

Dec 08, 2013 (2)

holocaust angel

06 Friday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Armenia, Poetry, sonnet

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Armenian Genocide, Armenian language, holocaust angel, please help, poem, Poetry, sonnet, tutor

Maybe my problem (I stop, think about
that and laugh. Then) is English. In Paris,

perhaps, I might find a teacher without
students, a great grandchild of the rootless

tribe that escaped Der-ez-Zor. Holocaust
angel, I’ve seen photos of you holy

in a torn sack dress. I’ve seen your bones, frost
white, dug up across Erzurum, Ani,

Van. Teach me French, teacher, then the ancient
tongue. The one that I wish to know. I wait,

I wait, I wait. In English there are none
who will speak. I don’t want to be silent

like a photograph. I wish to translate
this whole dark world into Armenian.

][][

note:

Let’s call this an obsession. The whole problem with wanting to learn a language that no one who lives near you speaks is that it is very hard to find a tutor. There use to be an Armenian community in Grand Rapids, Michigan, but not any more. I know this because in the city’s museum there is a display of a store run by an Armenian shop-keeper. But whoever they were and wherever they went to I do not know. One day I will meet an Armenian-speaker who will love poetry as much as I do and help me translate all the dark poems of my heart into the language I want to love but can’t speak. One day …

meditation at fifty yards

05 Thursday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Feminism, Illustration and art, Poetry, sonnet

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art, Burst Angel, Gays with Guns, gun control, gun violence, Meditation at Fifty Yards Moving Target, Pink Pistols, poem, Poetry, reblog, Rita Dove, sonnet, Zardoz

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“anger is an energy” — Public Image Ltd.

This is urgent. This poetic justice
concealed in the long gun’s long chamber.

I’ll turn to you since the peaceful chorus
rarely makes good Peace Keepers. This anger

turns us passive witness. Always after
our wars do we even hear a poet

condemn our bloodshed; a general slur
against violence. But this poem? I cut

it on a bullet and put the bullet
in the chamber; it’s a rhyme against bad

behavior. Now, goddess of the sonnet
and the bullet, Athena of the mad

blood, speak through this round black-eyed deterrent.
Help me cock this back. This is urgent.

][][

I wrote that poem back in 2008, back when there were still national conversations going on about the merits of gun-control and closing down Guantanamo and bring our troops back home. I don’t know what happened to the Anti-War crowd, perhaps the debacle that turned into Occupy Wall Street depressed them so much they went home or perhaps their trust-funds ran out and they were required to get 9 to 5 jobs to support their patchouli habits and SUVs (just kidding guys, you know I love you). Whatever the case, the dialogues about the state of our nation seem to be missing (or perhaps I’m just not looking in the right places, that happens too) which is sad since none of the issues have changed. We are, for example, still a nation that loves using guns. According to the United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime, “in 2010, there were 19,392 firearm-related suicide deaths, and 11,078 firearm-related homicide deaths in the United States.” According to a report by Heninger and Hanzlick, (2008) a “study of non-natural deaths in a large American city between 2007-08 revealed that half of such deaths in persons from 10 to 19 years of age were due to homicide, and firearms were involved in 88% of them.” I don’t know who Heninger and Hanzlick are, nor do they name the city, but regardless, the issue of gun violence is not going to go away in my lifetime, perhaps ever, at all.

I don’t own a gun, nor will I ever. I say that knowing it doesn’t take a lot of morals or energy or cojones to not own something. I also don’t own a factory that uses child labor to make Martha Stewart products either, but that doesn’t make me a virtuous person. In the same way, writing a poem about gun violence doesn’t actually stop people from killing each other. But it does have the potential to change minds, change attitudes, change whole ways of thinking. All art has that potential, poetry is no exception. And yet, having said that, there are so few well-written poems about the pros and the cons of guns. I am not sure why this is, since the current batch of poets living and writing today excel at writing about other things — broken hearts, failed relationships, their terrible life choices when dating — and yet somehow because the subject is about guns poets seem shy to touch the issue. How odd.

I saw the poet Rita Dove perform back in 2004, at the Dodge Poetry Festival. Her book, American Smooth, had just come out and she read Meditation at Fifty Yards. It blew my mind. When she got to the line, “one incandescent/ fingertip,” she traced a straight line in the air and it seemed to me like the pathway glowed. But it was the last section, where the bullet is given voice, that is the power of the poem. “O aperture O light straight is my verb I am flame velocity O beautiful body I am coming,” she read each line faster and faster and I found myself weeping in the audience, as I do when something I do not understand, something bigger than myself, touches me.

I know it is possible to have a conversation about gun control and gun violence. We tend to get caught up in soundbite quotes, which reduces complex issues into simple black and white ones. That does neither side any favors. Poetry can side-step that problem. It can bring a voice to a subject that is, for many people, taboo. Simply wishing for guns to go away solves nothing, likewise, ignoring the violence that guns bring to our communities is shameful. When the poets start tackling this issue that is when our national dialogue will start once more.

The art I used for this post came from simply googling the term “gays with guns.” Some of the images are a little more obscure. The first is from the anime Bakuretsu Tenshi (Burst Angel, in English), the second was an actual pink tank used during a Pro-Gay Marriage rally, the third from the website Pink Pistols (with a whole catalog of “femme pistols”), and last is Sean Connery in his, “red nappy, knee-high leather boots, pony tail and Zapata moustache” from the 1974 movie Zardoz. As with everything I do, it seemed like a good idea at the time.

][][

Meditation at Fifty Yards, Moving Target

— by Rita Dove

Safety First.

Never point your weapon, keep your finger
off the trigger. Assume a loaded barrel
even when it isn’t, especially when you know it isn’t.
Glocks are lightweight but sensitive;
the Keltec has a long pull and a kick.
Rifles have penetrating power, viz.:
if the projectile doesn’t lodge in its mark,
it will travel some distance
until it finds shelter; it will certainly
pierce your ordinary drywall partition.
You could wound the burglar and kill your child
sleeping in the next room, all with one shot.

Open Air.

Fear, of course. Then the sudden
pleasure of heft—as if the hand
has always yearned for this solemn
fit, this gravitas, and now had found
its true repose.

Don’t pull the trigger, squeeze it—
squeeze between heartbeats.
Look down the sights. Don’t
hold your breath. Don’t hold
anything, just stop breathing.
Level the scene with your eyes. Listen
Soft, now: squeeze.

Gender Politics.

Guys like noise: rapid fire,
think-and-slide of a blunt-nose sliver Mossberg,
or double-handed Colts, slugging it out from the hips.
Rambo or cowboy, they’ll whoop it up.

Women are fewer, more elegant.
They prefer precision:
tin cans swing-dancing in the trees,
the paper bull’s-eye’s tidy rupture at fifty yards.

(Question: If you were being pursued,
how would you prefer to go down—
ripped through a blanket of fire
or plucked by one incandescent
fingertip?)

The Bullet.

dark dark no wind no heaven
i am not anything not borne on air i bear
myself I can slice the air no wind
can hold me let me let me
go i can see yes
o aperture o light let me off
go off straight is my verb straight
my glory road yes now i can feel
it the light i am flame velocity o
beautiful body i am coming i am yours
before you know it
i am home

backbone

03 Tuesday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Erotic, Illustration and art, Poetry, sonnet

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art, backbone, bisexuality, colors are sexy, Echo and Narcissus, John Waterhouse, poem, Poetry, psychedelic, sonnet, your fantasies are obvious

Dec 03, 2013 (2)

There are some spaces that feel all precious;
the small fuzzy-haired curve of my skull-bone

where they used forceps to pull me free, plus
these words. I love these words. Get a backbone,

dear, where we’re going you’ll need it. Reading
about your fantasies, usually they

include titanic boobs bouncing, flopping,
swaying, cocks that never droop. No wordplay,

no wit, no camp. That’s not kink. An echo
can moan better. Gimme color. Vulva

purple. Cock brown. Start with this sea coral,
blue blush, start glistening deeper, pink glow,

peach wet, sopping scarlet, clenched fuchsia.
I hit a pleasure point, your thigh, my skull.

][][

note:

I cropped and then turned upside down this image from Waterhouse’s painting Echo and Narcissus, happy to see that Narcissus’ reflection isn’t actually looking at himself, he is staring at the audience.

bastard’s silence

03 Tuesday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Erotic, Illustration and art, Poetry, sonnet

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art, bastard's silence, butch queens, femme boys, I love blue, poem, Poetry, psychedelic, rent boy, selfie, The Other

Dec 03, 2013 (1)

How does that simple gesture of finger
across lips silence us? How do fingers

digging deep into fabric mean pleasure?
I’ve drunk from dripping rain; but what is hers

isn’t mine. What do butch queens signify?
If I’m narcissistic and perverted

it is only because such love is sly
and hard to find; like a booty goon, stud

muffin or power bottom. All the words
that we have for the Other, for one who

isn’t, could fit on the head of a cock,
a pin, a rent boy’s tongue. I’m the bastard’s

silence. The first question. How much can you
take in? Open your mouth, but please, don’t talk.

shaman of the bones

01 Sunday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Erotic, Poetry

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a spell, El Nina, erotic pain, listen, poem, Poetry, shaman of the bones

 

everything you do first
comes like breath like a warm

hot wind everything drums
like our pulses quickening

quickly the heady natural mystic
shaman of the bone fills

the air for it is very natural
isn’t it to be naked to want

me to see everything now
drink from me and be

nourished hoodoo and the hex
and I wish that my dark

honey alone could sustain
you but I fell in love

with you now you’re enemy
the words I spoke

to you keep them inside
this is a spell listen

dead man switch

01 Sunday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Erotic, Poetry

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bleed me, dead man pleasure, homoerotic, poem, Poetry, switch cutting

 

thoughts are of muscle and
bone thrash under ankles

and wrists ache as the ropes
cut into muffled moans permeate

the dark truck stop bathroom
straddling at the neck slowly

rip the tape off force
it into the back

of the throat re-enter
with a renewed determination

hard pleasure dead man
switch cutting through

my belly watch
everything spill

quiver

01 Sunday Dec 2013

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Camp aesthetic, homoerotic, one well-hung cookie, poem, Poetry, pre-Stonewall, Saint Sebastian

 

a river of stars flooded
out of me even what’s

beautiful can be pain can
be violent joy where

the first arrow ended
marked the path you must

take to cross to me
the scene has been

set the bow tense
quiver in anticipation

][][

note:

Forever young and looking good tied naked to a tree, a saint popular with solders and athletes, Sebastian was a curly-haired Roman youth shot with arrows on the orders of emperor Diocletian, martyred by the establishment. In 1976, the British director Derek Jarman made a film, Sebastiane, which caused controversy in its treatment of Sebastian as a homosexual icon; though, as many critics have noted, this has been a subtext of his martyr story even before the Renaissance. In his novella Death in Venice, Thomas Mann writes about the Sebastian-Beauty as the “supreme emblem of Apollonian beauty, that is, the artistry of differentiated forms; beauty as measured by discipline, proportion, and luminous distinctions.” From these roots as well as the work of Susan Sontag and other pre-Stonewall theorists arose the aesthetic known as Camp; an acceptance of masculine effeminacy and a “heroism born of weakness.”

cheat the fates

01 Sunday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Poetry

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cheat the fates, lost love, poem, Poetry, shepherd

I.
boom shocka — true love
is not for everyone but
if we are to meet then
we shall like that —
boom

II.
Sleepless, I toss and turn
in my bed and listen to

the rain. I cannot see
a way out of this. Of all

the shepherds I am the one
who guides the bull to

heaven. All of the nurses, roots
witches and loving spinsters

I am the one who
will guide you to

the other side. But the green
rain came, washing

away all my paths, the heavy
temple bell reminding

me of all I must
leave behind

just to cheat the fates
and get you back.

III.
if we are to meet
again then let it
be if we are to
meet again then
let it be if we are
to meet again

then let it —

i sat up

01 Sunday Dec 2013

Posted by babylon crashing in Poetry

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I sat up, poem, Poetry, vexed

I sat up all night
last night knowing

just where you were
who you were with

knowing that everyone
wanted to be your

first because you still
don’t know what you want

yesterday I would
have said do not let

me be your first let
me be the one who

stays but today
I am not so sure

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