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mercy

27 Thursday Dec 2018

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Christmas Eve’s “No First Drink” Recovery
Meeting. The reek of Pall Mall in the air.

Don’t talk now. Don’t stand out. Not of Gyumri.
Not of dead orphans. Not of the nightmare

that haunts you from Nagorno-Karabakh.
Everyone here carries their own horrors.

Right now just listen, just be present. Black
humor, Lilith’s mercy, depraved lovers

kept you, if not lucid, at least sober …
but not tonight. You woke. You sit and grieve,

nod and listen. You love these survivors.
You love everyone but yourself. No prayer

will heal what you conceal under your sleeve,
under your burn scar, your broken knuckle.

ghastly

26 Wednesday Dec 2018

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After your mom goes to bed you slip out
of the trailer so that we can nuzzle

and pet in the red dirt. Lower-lip pout —
O-lip moan. Kisses and pheromones. Dull

ache of cock pressed against the camel toe
in your cotton. Creosote and sage. Kiss

with my tongue in your mouth. Rust moon’s glow.
“Middle school,” you hiss, “was never like this.”

All that stands between us is a condom
and the cloth of your Pinkie Pie knickers;

a left-over from your ghastly, “lost year.”
Not like this. Not now. Pain gives us freedom.

Not like that. This. Kiss me more. The sky blurs
as we bleed, crossing through this queer frontier.

demivierge

24 Monday Dec 2018

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Lady Frigg: there’s no shame when the gods touch
us. Hand on a mutton dagger. Fingers

in a velveteen mine. What they call a Dutch
Jacking, Fifty-nine, Mutual Pleasures

is what we do, every day, after school.
Fertile demivierge: all that’s in repose,

ready to be woke, is in us. Flesh fuel.
Dungarees around your knees. Your curled toes

quiver as I work in a third finger —
stroking what lies within. Like a heart-stone

or a seed-fruit our gifts are limitless
here in your bedroom before your mother

gets home. Tiny deaths spring up. Endless moan
as the gods fill us, vast and numberless.

Note:
DEMIVIERGE: A French term meaning, “an adolescent who, though still technically a virgin, has engage in other sexual activities including mutual-masturbation, oral sex and heavy petting.” (from, sex-lexis, an on-line erotic dictionary)

olisbos

23 Sunday Dec 2018

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Would I might rouse the jelly-boy in you
which throbbed, quaked, pulsated in your knickers

last night. A dill-doll. A purple cork-screw
with all the battery-power of mother’s

little helper. Greeks called it, “olisbos” —
born from where the ghost of Sappho’s cosmic

songs caused storms, carved the island of Lesbos.
I like it best when we’re out in public;

you slip it out and head to the restroom,
gone for ages. Once I heard your fuck-please

keening groan mixed along with Cunt-Bugger’s
(pet name) dreary drone. Last night cum, froth, spume

glazed its sides. This night with its batteries
dead you feel a touch too raw for pleasure.

scurrilous

20 Thursday Dec 2018

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It was odd: taking you to high school prom
though I was in college. That dress: ruffles

galore. You had licked cum from off my palm
moments before but in one of the lulls

on the dance floor while Wham!’s Careless Whisper
dropped I felt scandalous. Rites of Passage,

indeed: with acid from an eye-dropper,
with wine, with pot. Dried cum caked your cleavage

and ass, your fleecy cunt under your dress.
If I must praise anything I shall praise

us: a shy wanton and a sex-starved nerd
and our last night. Neither of us could guess

how soon we’d part: I’d start my Vegas-phase
making porn and you enrolled in Harvard.

love-tide

18 Tuesday Dec 2018

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Plea to the sea. Lure of cure in rapture:
you took a photograph with your brassiere

unhooked, sitting in front of a mirror
to watch me, inch by slow inch, disappear

into your split-slicked need. We sat with spread
hips. Your hair covered my face. Lips steady.

Camera snapped the moment the dark seabed
boiled slag up in you, filling the cowrie

of your cunt with the hope that I might fuck
away your wound if I could. There is pain

only sea sprites can cure, like the violence
in your pix: like how love-tide flows amok

in us. We keep fucking, trying. Again,
always again. Just once, O gods, just once.

tad

16 Sunday Dec 2018

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Pain’s reign. Warm in my hand. We’re a relic
of those vanished beasts: sucked into tar pits,

etched into sandstone cliffs. We’re the brainsick
passions of gods. We listen to The Slits,

Cunt Clones, Hole. We say there’ll be hell to pay,
bastards going down. Promise or threat? Vague

reference to oral sex. Call me ashtray.
All those cigarettes scars: nebula, plague,

splatter acid. Odd shapes: relics tad queer.
Hard-core sex sentience. Wisdom through pain.

All my heroes have been old maids, spinsters,
bachelor girls packing. Those without fear

and old-school with their passion. Our freak’s reign:
thrill in my hand, tremors in your knickers.

askew

13 Thursday Dec 2018

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We pulled off the road to a shack with no
glitter on the porch, just the rancid ghost

of your father, a lost hungry Ego,
damaged Id. Fingernail scratches that boast

the things you do scare other kids. Scared stiff
but not scared straight. Love is always askew

in this curved earth, bent sky, the lush whiff
of kink under our nails. I feel for you

as I unzip your fly, ease short-shorts off
wide hips, kissing each dark stretch-mark. I feel

you, go down on you, pressed against the wall
of your childhood home. Your dead dad still scoffs

at your needs. What we do now is love: heal
all his ill work, free the ghosts in your skull.

pot, porn and boo

12 Wednesday Dec 2018

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Three girls shooting hoop with unbound laughter
the time boys weren’t around. One joked about

missed shots. One twirled the ball on her finger.
One talked about art and love and burn-out.

When I consider how my art was spent
it would never be like you and your boo,

your quick-trice slam-dunks, never a moment
all mine though I was the one you went to

when boys return, games end, your friends depart.
Even with the windows shut, pot and porn

cranked to 10, we could still hear your boyfriend
bragging down on the court. That was my art.

Not a lover, but in a world of scorn
the one who loved you, almost to the end.

choke cherries

11 Tuesday Dec 2018

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Deluge of wasps swarm. Their storm sound is huge.
When I feel hot, I flip a lid. It stops.

Complicit in your own misuse I rouge
your twinge, cum-cake your ache. I have the top’s

need for chaos in love. Though wasps flock
when touched I derange, let love bludgeon

me to confess: like witches and warlocks
my art comes from dark flame. In a garden

always in decay, where bile-born insects
swarm, go find choke-cherries. In the temper

and the tantrum find what gets you off bent,
flips your Id, fills you with buzz. All infects

are good, all wounds holy. Our vast sound. Slur
as I acquiesce. Slur as you consent.