“Neat,” I tweak. Rolling your nipple between
fingers and thumb. You bleat out weak-squeak noise
during recess. — In the girl’s bathroom. — In
the 3rd stall. Shorts pulled down; your thick tomboy’s
thighs clamped around what passes as my wrist,
spreading out inside you. For two whole weeks
you’d come for me, emerging with a mist
of dead boy’s cum and a newfangled freak’s
need for more finger fucking. — I’m your ghost
of a wallflower every time I, “eights,”
you. A thousand years of bliss stir in you.
None of your classmates have felt this, can boast
dead boys love them. Just you, when grief mutates
to need in the bathroom. Call this rescue.