I love that my fear lives under my bed.
I’ve been down there: torn condoms, used needles,
and my left toe-cutting knife. All the dead
little things I’ve loved and abandoned. Skulls
that will always be prettier than me.
Loose teeth. I’ve swallowed at least six. The jaw
of one Milady de Winter. What she
did — no, spoilers, sweetie. The things that gnaw
at me aren’t what you think. The Internet
where I live: “None of us fuck, see? Sex is
ugly. None of your free, hippy love shit
here,” as Johnny told Nancy. It’s that threat,
you might become mine, I might become his.
Strange how just a floor can become a pit.