Shoulder deep in the ocean at sunrise —-
night, stars, fish slid around me, my hair swirled
behind. This point in the sand horrifies
me, this point where the tide pulls and the world
wonders if I’ll return to shore or let
myself be dragged forward. There are spirits
in the deep that are hungry for touch, wet
like me in the surf, who know the secrets
of how to survive under such pressure
but have no wish to survive. If only
there was a third option; neither forward
nor back; something to calm this sex-fever.
Brain sick, I cannot choose the land, the sea,
madness, love, silence or these damning words.